it still hasn’t hit me that you’re gone bby*: to me, you’re just on some wonderful vacay in cancun or something; I know how much you love it there.. &I know how scared you are of costa rica lol. its taken me a while to do this, but I’m still healing; slowly, but surely.

only you comprehend what exactly you are to me. only you know how in love with you I once was. &even though you make fun of me all the time for acting like your mother, its because only you know how much I truly care. only you know how much I admire you; &how, to anyone that’d ask, i’d always brag about how bright you are, how talented, &how much potential I’ve always believed you to have.

when I first met you, it really was love at first sight, &it took months before I could actually talk to you, how embarassing lol. you however, took it upon yourself to say hi to me every single morning, sit with me every single lunch, &partner with me in every class. you were the first person I had met that put so much time &effort into me, &we were just kids. you were always there reminding me of what I am, &what I can be. you were unknowingly the reason for the tears of a young girl in love, but were actively the reason for her smiles. I can gladly state that not a bad day went by when you were around. everyone says we’ve gained a new angel, but I’m lucky enough to know that I’ve always had one.

when I lost you, I lost more than I could ever imagine; I lost what was once such a big part of my world, &of my being. I lost my best friend, my confidant, my shoulder to cry on, my first love, my first kiss, my first reason in life to smile, &the light you have always represented in my life. you were the first person to make feel loved &cared for; the first person to make me feel special &worth something & i will always cherish that. you will always be my superman.